Cold night

"I have never wanted to bother you or anybody around me. My life was planned so well. Grow up in the playground with my imaginary friends, graduate with real friends, find a nice girl to marry, to love, to honor. Ensure her and our beuatiful children. Watch hand in hand with my love our children growing up. I was so foolish. Naivety grips me and I can´t even breathe! All girls are the same cheap bitches who don´t deserve my attention, much less love. But you are different! When I reconciled with reality and even despised myself, I met you and went out with you. Now I feel I can love again! :) I allways knew I will meet you somewhere. Be my queen, my princess, my muse, and I'll give you everything you ask for. But you are not looking for love you just want to have fun. Somewhere inside me there is the part of me that can understand that. I will not force you. You are not my property. I already can´t go on! You or nobody! I trully love you and will never forget."

He whispered into the cold night and took a step into nothingness.